The Mist of a Memory
– J. LeDoux
I’m ready to leave you
I’m done with your shtick
I don’t really believe you
Want another go at it
You left my heart
Like a broke down car
My nerves are frazzled
I’ m acting bizarre
My brain’s in a freeze
My minds gray
You’re like a disease
That won’t go away
There’s a hole in my soul
That you shot right through
You’re making me cold
I got to get rid of you
You don’t have to chose
Will it be him or me
I’m not gonna lose
My dignity
I’m dropping you
Like a worn out shoe
Soon you’re gonna be
Just the mist of a memory
Mind Over Matter
– J. LeDoux
Mind over matter
That’s something I’m trying to do
It’s just a little physics
That keeps me apart from you
Mind over matter
That’s something i’m trying to do
Breakdown space and time
And be together with you
I’m trying to will you here
Find you where ever you are
Locate your body or soul
Pull you in from afar
Are you still in my time
Or have you slipped away
Have you gone forwards or back
Lving in another day
Where o where might you be
Different continent or on the sea
In the air flying free
Or in a place heavenly
Wherever you are now
I’ll use my mind to find
No amount of space and time
Can keep you from being mine
Mind over matter
That’s something I’m trying to do
I guess it’s only physics
That keeps me apart from you
Mind over matter
That’s something I’m trying to do
Breakdown space and time
And be together with you
Fearing
– J. LeDoux (based on Emily Dickinson)
While I was fearing it came
But with less of the fear because
Fearing it so long
Had almost made it dear
There is a fitting dismay
An appropriate despair
Tis harder knowing that fear is due than
Knowing it is here
The waiting is the worse
It ties you up in knots
Anticipation a curse
A thousand empty shots
If to fear were merry
And to worry were gay
How blithe would be the memory
Of that awful day
When hell was turned loose
A full psychic assault
A fearful memory so cruel
Could it be my fault
If recollecting were forgetting
Then I remember not
And if forgetting recollecting
How nearly I forgot
But recollecting is not forgetting
It’s vivid rehearsal of pain
It reminds me of that day
It keeps fear in my brain
If recollecting were forgetting
Then I remember not
And if forgetting recollecting
How nearly I forgot
But recollecting is not forgetting
It’s vivid rehearsal of pain
It reminds me of that day
It keeps fear in my brain
It keeps me a waiting
But not waiting in vain
It keeps me a waiting
It keeps fear in my brain
It keeps me a waiting
It keeps fear in my / brain
Theory of My Mind
– J. LeDoux
Do you have a theory of my mind
If you do then why are you so blind
To the things that I need
To the things that I want
To the reasons that I bleed
Every time you taunt me
Am I the one that you believe in
If so why are you always leaving
Can you see the things that I’m feeling
If you do you’re very good at concealing
You always criticize
You never ever empathize
You should try to be me
Maybe then you’d finally see me
Do you have a theory of my mind
If you do then why are you so blind
To the things that I need
To the things that I want
To the reasons that I bleed
Every time you taunt me
Crime of Passion
– J. LeDoux
Sentenced to death
For a crime I did commit
I couldn’t stop
I did it in a fit
Of anger and pain
Of sorrow and hate
Of torture and trouble
Of misery and fate
You were to me
Like nectar to a bee
My source of life
Your loving wife
Saw you with him
(You were hurt and enraged)
I couldn’t stop
(Once your brain was engaged )
A crime of passion has got me
Locked in this dirty old cell
(A crime of passion has got you
lost in a living hell)
If I could go back I wouldn’t
I wouldn’t kill for you
You’re not worth
What I’m going though
Waiting and waiting
For my day to come
Time goes so slow
Can’t they just get it done
I thought I could take it
Just the test of a man
Wrong again
Blood’s stuck to my hands
A crime of passion has got me
Locked in this dirty old cell
A crime of passion has got me
Lost in a living hell
(A crime of passion has got you
Locked in this dirty old cell
A crime of passion has got me
Lost in a living hell)
Lost in a living hell
Lost in a living hell
How Free Is Your Will
– J. LeDoux
How free is your will?
Do you have control?
Are you in charge?
Who’s running your soul?
How free is your will?
Are you automatized?
Just a bundle of habits?
Is your freedom disguised?
How free is your will?
Do you make up your mind?
Do you decide?
Or are your choices blind?
How free is your will?
Perhaps an illusion
A mystery
Convenient delusion
How free is your will?
Once you decide
Are you compelled?
Do you have to abide?
How free is your will?
Can you change your mind?
Reverse direction
Leave a choice behind
How free is your will?
Well of dignity
Fountain of pride
Sea of grandiosity
How free is your will?
The stuff of lore
The source of evil
The reason for war
How free is your will?
A truth to be hold
The secret of peace
A story to be told
How free is your will?
The way to stand tall
The basis of good
The hope for us all
Free will
A truth to be hold
The secret of peace
A story to be told
Free will
The way to stand tall
The basis of good
The hope for us all
The Automatic Mind
– T. Volk
Welcome to the automatic mind
The door is open to remembered time
Images are conjured like a dream
Guiding actions on the waking screen
Even though I realize it
Still I feel so blind
As I contemplate
The automatic mind
We live in the automatic mind
Introspection opens inner eyes
It seems advanced yet hardly in control
Illusion of the will is comfort cold
Even though I realize it
Still I feel so blind
As I think about and can’t live without
The automatic mind
Even though I realize it
Still I feel so blind
As I think about and can’t live without
Brainstorm
– J. LeDoux
It’s raining in my brain
I’m feeling no pain
Everybody thinks I’m insane
I’m just on my game
I don’t see the harm
Just having a brainstorm
Thoughts are racing, colors are flying
Magic’s in the air
Memories are flashing, legs a dashing
Don’t have a care, don’t have a care
Rain keeps coming down,
Thoughts are more pro found
Everybody’s staying clear
They hope I’ll disappear
I’m not alarmed
It’s just a brainstorm
Feelings are fleeting, heart’s a beating
No more despair
Muscles are cramped, head’s a damp
I’m on a tear, I’m on a tear
Storm’s picking up steam
My mind’s in a dream
Time’s a standing still
brrrr I’ve got a chill
Maybe that’s just the norm
When you’re in a brainstorm
Thoughts are racing, colors are flying
Magic’s in the air
Memories are flashing, legs a dashing
Don’t have a care
Feelings are fleeting, heart’s a beating
No more despair
Muscles are cramped, head’s damp
I’m on a tear, I’m on a tear
Refractory Time
– J. LeDoux and Daniela Schiller
Nerves fire and then they wait
Can’t fire again till in another state
It’s a thing called refractory time
It dictates the speed of the mind
I’m here in that deep dark place
In lonely refractory space
Will I ever feel or care
Awake from this nightmare
Got to go beyond the gap
Get out of this refractory trap
I need a cold hard slap
Wake from this refractory nap
I know I should move on
It’s too soon to do that
So I choose to be alone
Lost in my refractory gap
Nerves fire and then they wait
Can’t fire again till in other state
It’s a thing called refractory time
It dictates the speed of the mind
Got to go beyond the gap
Get out of this refractory trap
I need a cold hard slap
Wake from this refractory nap
It’s a thing called refractory time
It’s where I spend my time
It’s where I spend my time
Your Dreams
– J. LeDoux
What does it look like when you dream?
Is it in black and white or is there a color scheme?
Are there sounds when you sleep?
Are they noisy or in harmony?
Does time go to your future or your past?
Does it stop or does it fly by fast?
Is every night in a different space?
Or do you return to a strange and secret place?
Do you dream about me the way I dream of you?
If you do you must want me the way that I want you
In my dreams you are always around
You are always in my dreams in color and sound
I wish I knew if in your dreams we are together
Cause in my dreams of your dreams we are forever
Do you remember your dreams when you wake?
Are you dreams there for you to take?
Can you control your dreams when you sleep?
Do you regret a dream, one you didn’t keep?
Are your dreams about your hopes and fears?
Are they disguised or is their meaning clear?
Do you dream about the day and its ups and downs?
Or are your dreams just your brain spinning round?
Glue
– J. LeDoux
I saw you leaving, you saw me too
You smiled at me, that’s what you do
I tried to follow, but you were gone
Now I’m waiting, sitting home alone
I keep thinking about, you smile and eyes
I can’t believe your words were lies
You made me happy, so very glad
I can’t forget, the times we had
There must be something in my brain
There must be something in my veins
There must be some primal glue
That keeps my memory stuck on you
When I saw you go, I didn’t know
I thought you’d be back, in a week or so
It’s so hard, realizing that
I wasn’t really, where you’re at
I dream about you, most every night
I dream you’re back, and everything’s right
I keep hoping my dreams will come true
That I’ll wake up, right next to you
There must be something in my brain
There must be something in my veins
There must be some primal glue
That keeps my memory stuck on you
I keep thinking about, your smile and eyes
I can’t believe your words were lies
You made me happy, so very glad
I can’t forget, the times we had
There must be something in my brain
There must be something in my veins
There must be some primal glue
That keeps my memory stuck on you
Imaginate
– J. LeDoux
Yesterday I touched you
Today I thought of you
Tomorrow I’ll remember you
But after that
What am I gonna do
I’m gonna take a trip
No one else can take
Gonna travel in my mind
I’m gonna imaginate
A place and time where things are fine
Where I don’t need you all the time
Gonna travel in my mind
Leave your world behind
I still feel yesterday
I’m living OK today
I’m trying to see tomorrow
But after that
What am I gonna do
I’m gonna take a trip
No one else can take
Gonna travel in my mind
I’m gonna imaginate
A place and time where things are fine
Where I don’t need you all the time
Gonna travel in my mind
Leave your world behind
Leave your world behind
Leave your world behind
Leave your world behind
Leave your world behind
Leave your world behind
Leave your world behind
Piece of My Mind
– J. LeDoux
I was gonna give you a piece of my mind
But I wouldn’t have enough for me
You wore out my brain so it’s hard to find
A piece of my mind that’s free
You left so little of my mind behind
I can hardly remember me
I mostly have to pantomime
The one I used to be
My brain’s a tangled mess
Ever since you got in it
You took the very best
Just as you intended
Why are you like that
I wish that I knew
What goes on inside your brain
Makes you make me blue
You say you want to change
You want to settle down
That I’m the one you want
To be with in a gown
There you go again,
Putting me down to your friends
Don’t you realize
Words are means not ends
No matter what you say
You will still be you
If you wanna change who you are
You gotta change what you do
I was gonna give you a piece of my mind
But I wouldn’t have enough for me
You wore out my brain so it’s hard to find
A piece of my mind that’s free
You left so little of my mind behind
I can hardly remember me
I mostly have to pantomime
The one I used to be
The one I used to be
The one I used to be
The one I used to be
The one I used to be